I hate my life, how do i go on?

I never thought i was a suicidal person. I have thought about suicide a lot over the years, how easy it would be just to end everything. I've always had great empathy for those who have lost a loved one due to suicide, and also for those who have contemplated or committed suicide. To actually want to end your life is a very depressing and horrifying feeling. Sometimes i wish i had the strength to end my life, to just wake up one day and know that tomorrow it will all be over. I'm not a religious person so i don't believe that i would go to hell for it either. I do believe in a higher power, and i believe that God, or whatever it is, is a kind power and if i were to end my life i wouldn't be punished because of it. It's frustrating because no matter how miserable i get and how much i wish i could go through with it there is still this part of me that wants to keep on living. It's strange, but i hate that part. Anyone else out there feel this way?